My MySpace blogs in review

The beginning of a new month, new things to come….
I was a little bored, and needed a break from working on tax stuff, so I figured that I would review my blogs that I have posted, and see where I am now. Kind if like opening a time capsule.
*** This time last year, I had a little rant about my birthday, and how Vern was not really paying attention to what day it was. This year, my birthday was the best that I’ve had in years, with only two minor exceptions. As most of you know, I have been working part time at Prudential Redwood Realty in Arcata since July. It has been refreshing to be around a new group of people. 3 of them took me to dinner on my birthday at Sea Grill (yummy), and we had so much fun. I also got a $50 Bed Bath and Beyond gift card from them!!! How awesome is that?
Earlier, I had started off the day as the lucky winner of the Power 96.3 / Arcata Florist Birthday Club winner!! Flowers delivered to me!! I opened my package from my best friend Holly (a chocolate fondue pot and chocolates!!) I had a great lunch with my mom, and capped of my afternoon with a visit to my aunt’s house. It was a good day overall.
Now for the exceptions; missing from my celebration were 3 of my greatest friends, Holly, and Robert & Tracy. Holly’s in Tahoe, and was not able to come out; Robert & Tracy were on their way back to Eureka from Keizer, Oregon. (They just moved back to Oregon after being in Eureka for 2 years). I know that they were all with my “in spirit”.
*** At the end of September, I talked about the negativity surrounding me, and that I was ready to change. I have changed a little, but I am no where near where I want to be. It’s March 2nd, and I am still taking baby steps to be where I belong. I have been able to block out most of the negativity, since that is the majority of what has been brining me down. Those that have been supplying it are still around; I guess you could just say that I have been channeling it differently. I must admit that it works very well!
*** From about the beginning of September, to the end of November, there were times I felt like my personal life was falling apart. I did not want to be “one of those people” that walked around talking about how terrible their lives were, that everything happened to them. Most people around me knew about “everything” that happened, but they probably did not add it all up together. So, to do a little venting...here goes: My grandma fell down at the beginning of September and needed to have surgery on her hip. When she went in the next morning for surgery, her pacemaker stopped. Then we spent until about 8pm that night trying to get her to “wake up” I had made up my mind that I was not leaving the hospital until she opened her eyes and looked at me. This was a very long, tiring day. She stayed at the hospital in Fortuna for another week I think, and then was transferred to St Joe’s for another try at the surgery.
So, I get along my merry way that next Saturday morning, and I get pulled over by the CHP for the illegal window tint on my front windows.
I was so pissed the only thing I could think about doing was calling my cousin Stacy to vent on her!! The guy was a total prick. I was more ticked off about the amount of times that I have been up and down these roads since buying my car in February. Now because this guy wanted to start his Saturday off with a bang, he decides to turn around and pull me over for flippin window tint. I have had every single law enforcement agency from here to Sacramento actually pass by me, and keep going! So, grandma pulls out of surgery fine, and starts her rehab process. After a couple of weeks, I start to feel calm and comfortable again. October comes without any hitches, that is until Halloween. I am excited because I am going to help hand out candy in Arcata later in my cool wizard costume.
I am getting ready to eat my lunch, and Vern calls me to tell me that someone hit my car, and the cops are out in the parking lot waiting for me? What???? I thought he was kidding, and when I listened to the tone of his voice, I knew it was not a joke. I threw the phone down, told Robert, our Security Director what was going on and ran out to the parking lot. Sure enough, my car is a mess! To cut to the chase, I’ve got about 98% of the event on surveillance, I’ve turned the info over to the police, and they have nothing. I’ll tell you what I’ve got: a car with $6000 in damage to it, and a $500 deductible that I have to come up with out of MY POCKET! My car is fixed now, but of course it will never be the same!
*** November always begins the holidays….the crazy time at the mall. There’s Thanksgiving, yummy turkey and good times with our families. Vern and I abandoned the traditional times (which was ok with my mom…=) )and headed to the casino. Robert and Tracy were going to be there too, so fun would be in store!! We actually did enjoy ourselves, and I made sure to call my parents on out way there to wish them a Happy Thanksgiving. My dad sounded really weird. His voice was funny. Mom said that he just had a sore throat. Black Friday comes, and I actually participate in the door buster sales at a few of the retailers. I go about my day at the mall, watching every one else look for that “good deal” As I am leaving the mall, my cell phone rings and its my mom telling me that my dad is on his way to the hospital because he fell down twice at the store. Great. To the hospital again. I feel like I was just there. To cut to the chase again, my dad dies the next day. November 25th. Two days after Thanksgiving, one month before Christmas, and two months before my birthday. My kids will never know either one of their papas in person, because they are both gone.
Fuck I hate this. What else could possibly go wrong? Come forward to the last three weeks. Now I’ve got a sick cat. My 12 year old male cat, “Bubbas” is having a hard time going to the bathroom. I take him to the emergency vet, leave him overnight, and find out nothing! Thanks a bunch guys! Other than consoling me when I was bawling, you did nothing for me. I take my cat to his normal vet first thing Monday morning, and they get him to pee. We get him on antibiotics for a possible bladder infection, and I figure he’s on the road to recovery, and another 12 years of life. Yeah right. He’s still having problems, and he keeps me up all night one day this week. Back to the vet I go on Thursday, and I leave him there. They want to do blood work, x-rays, and another urinalysis. I lose my mind again, thinking that it would just be cheaper to send him to kitty heaven. Fortunately, there’s nothing. We just need a second round of antibiotics to cure this bladder infection. I thought about the couple of times that I’ve had a sinus infection and needed 2 z-packs, so it made sense.
*** And now we are at today. Today is March 2nd, 2008, and I have told you what my life has been like the last few months. I can also throw into this mess that a friend of the family has been in and out of the hospital since new years. Ash, she’s a great girl with CF, and the whole entire month of February has been a struggle for not only her, but her family as well. Her mom’s bulletins were constantly getting the better of my emotions. She’s out the hospital right now, but not home. She’s started taking some new medicine that a fellow myspace / cf gal has used. It looks like it is going to help deal with the mysterious pain that Ash has been dealing with, that the doctors cannot find. Ash is one of the strongest girls I know. Everyone should be able to look at her, and take some hints.

***Congratulations, you have made it to the end of my blog. If I have lost anyone along the way, I apologize. If you think that this is nothing, please do not judge me. We all deal with what happens in our individual lives VERY DIFFERENTLY, so please try to remember that. One persons’ mountain is another’s molehill.
The bar is now open, and the first round is on the house. Pull up a barstool, and let’s celebrate to the rest of 2008 being the best year yet!
~Tami~